attack on power of purse, cashmere maxi dress, fleetwood mac rhumors, male gaze, female gaze, coming out, love through hand written notes
yesterday i was grateful for a good meeting at the cemetery...
today i am looking forward to self care...
Trump’s assumption of power over the government’s purse is a profound attack on the principles on which the Founders justified independence from King George III in 1776. The Founders stood firm on the principle articulated all the way back to the Magna Carta in 1215 that the government could not spend money without consulting those putting up that money by paying taxes.
a depressing read in its entirety... hope i am able to get to the no kings protest rally this weekend... i don't expect the government to meet us in the streets in beacon, but guessing they will somewhere... they are painting the demonstrators as violent and unhinged... they will attempt to develop that optic... what they want is a reason to invoke the insurrection act and declare marshal law...
i am wearing my gray cashmere funnel neck maxi dress this morning... so warm and silky smooth... i love wearing this dress... i love the way it feels on my legs and thighs... my steps draw the fabric back and forth across bare shaved legs... sensual... a little erotic even... most men don't know what they are missing... the approved masculine wardrobe doesn't allow for cashmere funnel necked maxi dresses...
this morning i listened to fleetwood mac's rhumors album... a sublime album... very feminine forward... love and love lost songs... reflective of the tempestuous love lives of the band members, especially stevie nicks and christine mcvie... it put me in a powerfully good feminine mood... i was reviewing and screen shot saving images of beautiful-to-me women on behance... a morning ritual to affirm and inspire my inner feminine... the music and images together were an amazing self reinforcing loop...
the nature of my feminine in my mind is sooo interesting... i look at women and images of women all the time... i take them in as attractive-to-me sexual creatures... it is hard to know if it's male or female gaze that i take them in with... probably both... probably male gaze dominated... i also study them carefully for inspiration of my own feminine presentation... how are they dressed?... how have they done their hair?... how have they accessorized?... how have they made themselves up?... could i pull off their look?...
we were with friends the other night... among the few friends that i had not come out to in person... i told them about it and the reactions i am getting, which have been overwhelmingly positive... i am lucky... i live and move in liberal places that are pretty accepting... k told me they want to visit and when they do, she wants to see my fullest feminine presentation... ok...
a friend received the greeting card i sent them while on block island... they texted me to tell me how much they loved getting it and how special the card felt because i wrote with a pen the message inside... the world is so digital she said... this is the reaction i was hoping for... part of my analog campaign to help people feel more grounded in this really challenging time...
we were listening to an album of music last night... it was really making us feel good... we happened to know the artist and i was able to fb message her to tell her how good her album was making us feel in that moment... she messaged back to say we had made her day... that artists often feel they are throwing their work out into the void and how nice it was to be reminded why they do what they do...
in these hard, hard times, we must offer the love of hand written thinking-of-you notes and quick text message appreciations and frequent in person get togethers... it will help us stay strong... it will save us from demoralization... my friend k is very active in the democratic party and in protesting... she needs to get out and be physically active towards making things better... politics and confrontational protesting is not my thing... the work i want to do is quiet and behind the scenes... to remind myself and others how wonderful being human can be...