god and sentient beings, what we are seeking by cameron reed, tragic mistakes, americana, lorna simpson
yesterday i was grateful for a friend’s trust…
today i am looking forward to a trip to sunny nails with holly…
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notes…
an aiyi can’t experience what a human feels when being bitten. The more fully I feel it, the more of me will make it into the work. Anyway, that’s what i like to think.
"an aiyi" in this case is an "artificial intelligence" or an "intelligence augmentation"... in this quote the human and aiyi are intermingled... the human experiences the physical world which aiyi cannot do directly... must do through a sentient being...
ian mcgilchrist articulated the idea that there is a co-creative partnership between god and sentient beings… my interpretation of what he says is that we are to god what the nerves of our body are to our brain… we gather information about our physical world through our senses and our brain makes sense of and gets to know the world in that way… who knows how many sentient beings our god(s) have transmitting information about the cosmos back to them… it is a system of infinite finesse…
my afternoon with my wife was a little difficult… we lost patience with each other… i think i was hangry… i began to discuss with her an adjustment of our habits… i told her i was really struggling with the eating schedule we were on… i really want to adjust it to something more normal for me (and most people)… we'll see how that evolves...
i keep thinking about my friend… about her believing she failed her nephew… i want to tell her about the time, when i was young, that i experimented with a noose i found (made?)… i wanted to feel what it was like to be hung… i was exploring... giving myself experience... i don't believe it had anything to do with suicidal ideation... i don't remember being depressed... but i could have slipped and accidentally hung myself… what would my parents have felt?… how would that have altered their lives?… would they have blamed themselves for not seeing that i needed help?… would they believe they had failed me?… feelings they needn’t have… i would have made a mistake… misjudged… it wouldn’t be their fault… it would have been sad… a tragic loss… but not their fault or failure…
i am trying yet another work flow… i will write in my journal and hopefully (the part i am less sure i will be disciplined about) refine it throughout the day then post an edited version of the next morning… still may be more work than i will manage to do consistently…
thinking about purchasing eyeliner from clarins and more eye shadow… i am enjoying makeup… i think i am doing it reasonably well… and keeping it simple…
this article on the surge of interest in americana is interesting... as a life long liberal the sentiment of claiming my right to wave the flag rings true...
The American flag has traditionally been more closely associated with conservatives, who place a greater emphasis on nationalism. The stars and stripes are ubiquitous at Trump rallies, and were wielded by rioters on January 6 alongside the libertarian Gadsden flag (“Don’t Tread on Me”) and the Confederate flag — two more blatant symbols of division. But in recent years, progressives have attempted to re-embrace the aesthetics of Americana, asserting that the iconography of the United States belongs to them, too.
this article in AnOther magazine introduced me to Lorna Simpson... she's been around for decades... doing wonderful things... how did i miss her?...
There are many parts of the fearlessly experimental artist’s practice to explore, all unified by the themes that preoccupy her, including “the conditions under which images emerge, the erosion and resurgence of memory, the fickle nature of narratives and their blind spots, or the dynamics of race, power and gender that shape our perceptions”, to quote the show’s curator, Emma Lavigne, in her introduction to its catalogue.
i just ordered a copy of her collages book...